Hormonal Today

Hitting the hormonal section of pregnancy, guess it’s time. I’m tired, my feet hurt, I didn’t work much this week and I got a lot done but today I went back to work for a normal 8 hrs shift and felt as if my anxiety was crazy high and my temperament for people is at an all time low. I just think my mind is on high speed and my body is slowing down, telling me it’s time for rest. 10 more weeks, just 10 more weeks…. but this is how today felt…
(copied and edited text to mom)
I didn’t sleep long enough and I feel like the morning came to quickly and I had to be at work an hr earlier which screwed up my time basis. and I didn’t want to go to work this morning, that’s not normal. I left a little late bc I didn’t want to go. I couldn’t find my clock in card, to only find it in the wrong pocket of my purse, making me feel a bit more crazy. and then I couldn’t finish anything today, id start one thing then have to do something else and our beer truck didn’t come today so we didn’t have anything to stock and that stresses me out, though i know i cant do anything about it. and as I was trying to leave the servers and all like “wah, your being crazy pregnant today” and my customers are like “bleh, can’t think straight cuz your pregnant” and I just wanna be like “fuck off I don’t bitch when you have an off day”. then I find out I am opening the restaurant tomorrow at 8am which isn’t really a big deal, but that I didn’t notice it on the schedule, stresses me out bc i don’t not know my schedule….ever. idk??? I just want to crawl in my bed.

I need to go get my nails done but just don’t want to leave the chair in my living room, chocolate, a bubble bath, maybe some yoga…maybe something will get my stress down and my anxiety to slow. But until then I just feel crazy and irrational.

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Oh the changes…

Don’t read this if you don’t wanna know more terror… lol

So hello, it’s been so long…working a lot lately. So what have you been going through lately… We’ve hit the 3rd Trimester this week! Less Energy for you, More Baby Activity, what about your lovely ta-tas, how are they holding on? Mine are growing a lb a day it seems and nothing seems to help, the new bras, the sports bra, the top with a bra built in…and have you looked into buying Nursing Pads yet? oh wait, but we’re not nursing, get ready for it… you may start “leaking” before the baby comes and from what I’ve heard from my girlfriends…. its just about to get worse after the baby. Pregnancy seems to be a leaky leaky situation. And your nose is stuffy and your brain…well that is gone…

I don’t feel as if I can keep up with work anymore, I go brain dead mid-sentence half the time or while I’m trying to ring something into the computer, I just stare at the screen until I remember again…Oh and what about remembering things and writing them down correctly, that skill has too left me. But I love work so I’m not leaving anytime soon, they may just have to kick me out!

Even tho I have less energy, I have been keeping up with my fit-ness if you will! Downloading Pre-Natal Yoga, Pilates, and Fitness videos. Yoga is exhausting just to let you know, I never knew Downward Facing Dog could be so hard. And don’t download or try videos in which the “instructor” is not pregnant, it makes you hate them (and that’s irrational). 

I have found that in my previous post.. you know the lovely UTI one… CAN and did get worse… back to the doctor I went last week and the doctor laughed and said Yes, you have these cells and high count in these cells and it looks like kidney stones maybe. “Awesome.” was my response. So it was back to the antibiotics, which I’m still on and more water. Which neither go nicely with a baby dancing on your bladder and every other organ you once enjoyed.

And How’s your baby doing? Is it a he or she? Is she dancing around in your belly and maybe sticking her foot in your rib cage just because she fits there. Or maybe she’s flipping around over and over and you just see your stomach wave about, like a scene from Alien??! If you’re anything like me, you find it extremely uncomfortable but totally enjoyable to feel and watch. 

And How are your dreams… or wait are you sleeping? Low Energy, No Rest, No Sleeping, and if you do get sleep it leads to crazy dreams…. wait what?! Exactly, your days of sleeping are over, the tossing and turning has started or maybe you have to pee every…hour or so, and you probably have made it an igloo inside your room just so your comfortable temperature wise. 

So changes eh… have fun! you’re pregnant!