The last Month Countdown

Oh the last month has been quite phenomenal with the birthing classes, moving, peeing my pants at least once, packing, baby shower and yes i did finally cut my hours at work. I guess we can start with the classes, no one is going to be able to tell you how to have your baby, when your baby is truly going to arrive, and how your body reacts to it, but for more information on process and techniques used in labor and delivery, we decided to take a Prepared Child Birth class. It has shown us natural delivery, delivery with some medication, and C-Sections. It also has shown us relaxation techniques and ways to use everyday items, such as tennis balls, to help with pain. My class tho, seem like a bunch of idiots. I had 6 weeks to go our first day, and everyone else a month to 4 months to go. It seemed like not one of them had picked up a book to know one thing about the process of pregnancy. And theres a few who are so disgusted with the simple thought of delivery they close their eyes and gag when we talk about it… maybe it wasn’t the right time for you to get pregnant… maybe you should have read first about it. Why would you want to be so unprepared for something that you have no control over happening?! And these same simple minded idiots then discussing that they want every drug in the book so they don’t experience the pain, I wonder if they have thought these things thru, how it affects your unborn child who is 1/20th your pre-pregnancy size. I know for myself narcotics make me extremely nauseated, tired, and unable to handle most situations… nothing I would want a child to undergo. Epidurals are much better not truly effecting the child, but could effect breastfeeding. Which for some is very important. and Could give you a UTI bc of the use of a catheter, I’d break my arm twice before I thought about getting another UTI, especially since pregnancy has shown me a whole different pain from UTIs. I’m not saying I’m going without or people who use drugs are weak, I’m just saying I’m going to try going as long as possible without an epidural, hoping I will not get one and narcotics are out of the question. I couldn’t think of walking into the delivery room and just sitting there doped up on whatever they’ll give me. so I guess thats all I have to say about classes, I find them extremely informative and good for the money you spend on them.
So did you hear about practicing your kegals and strengthening your lady parts to help with delivery and any incontinence that pregnancy may give you? haha Except when your slipping in the parking garage while singing… yea, that’s right! I was on my way to class walking thru the parking garage with Robert, who has his hands full of blankets and pillows and myself caring my bag of a purse and two McCafe coffees. And I was singing “your song” from Moulin Rouge… obviously because parking garages have great acoustics. And while I took my last few steps out of the parking garage, I stepped on the little yellow OUT arrow and suddenly fell to my knee. Surprising me but as I was in the splits on the ground, not able to get up because I had no hands to use and Robert not being able to help bc of his full hands, I couldn’t help but laugh and try explaining what happened… oh pee happened. you know not like a full gush of pee, just like a tinkle which made me laugh harder, causing worse conditions for both of us. My pants and feet were all dirty and I couldn’t quit laughing. So when I went to class I emptied my lovely bladder, that was obviously too full for laughing and thought God, I have to blog about this! Pregnant people falling is not funny, so if you actually hurt yourself tell your doctor, Thankfully in my situation I was fine.
Last week, 37 weeks, the doctor has started the cervical checks to see if the baby was in position, any dilation was happening… you know all that fun stuff and come to find out Ms. Brooklyn is breech, laying on my right side looking at my left. Transverse Breech, which is not good for birth and will not be happening naturally. I have spent this last week hanging off the couch upside down, pushing her to the left, laying on my left side and any other ridiculous thing midwives say on the internet to make your baby move. So we go back tomorrow to see if shes moved. cross your fingers!
We had our shower, it was great! Saw a bunch of people from back home I haven’t seen in a long time and we received a bunch of amazing gifts. Mom has all the pictures or I would share. And we move tomorrow to our new place, so I will be back to tell you more exciting things!!!


Meeting your match

Meetin your match when it comes to work rest and nutrition. I’ve been doing pretty well, I’m coping with not sleeping, I eat what I can in the morning, and I’m still working my 10:30-6, 5 days a week. I can’t say it’s easy but I spend Sunday and Monday in bed or on the couch most of the time. Oh but Saturday was a different story, I didn’t sleep all night, toss and turn, I didn’t eat well throughout the week, noticing yesterday I was lacking on my protein intake the last week, and I had to be up for work in… oh 3 hrs (staring at the clock at 7am), I even moved to the couch to see if I could fall asleep there.
I did my normal routine of getting up showering putting myself together, taking the dog out and eating breakfast, a lovely meal combined of cereal and juice. I wasn’t feeling the greatest, my mind a few clicks behind my body but that’s what no sleep does to a person, esp a pregnant person, so I went on with my day opening the bar. I had a couple sit down for drinks and Lunch, it was BOGO entree day for a Mothers Day weekend special. And was feeling fine, made there drinks, put there food orders in and then the exhaustion set in while one of my all time regulars walked in. We made small talk and he asked for an Absolut Bomb, no Bomb tho and as he said it I could feel my body shutting down, scary but I was conscious of it, so I took a few steps back, held up the one sec finger and walked away… to my GMs office, she’s lovely btw, as I said I’m going to pass out but Jimmy needs an Absolut on the Rocks and I lowered myself to the ground, which she put me on a chair instead. Things seemed white around me, like that second you spent too much time on the treadmill and your body is like ohhh no, I’m done!
But once I sat down I felt ok, A little shaky but extremely hot. So my GM forces water, juice, and a cold towel at me as I sit there angry bc I would like to stay at work for 5 more weeks, but looks as if my body is saying no.
We then talk about maybe cutting my hours or calling someone in for the day, but my stubborn ass says no, unless it happens again. But I agreed to do no lifting at all and kept the juice and water flowing while eating anything I could… lemon bread, a donut, French fries….
By the time I decided to get up and walk back to my bar, Genna had my regulars beered up, my couple was done with lunch, I swear only 10 or 20 minutes had passed, and jimmy was gone but coming back in a few.
So I started my day over I had everyone a bit worried and more helpful than ever. Not really fond of that, I’m not one to ask for help nor do I feel that I should use people since I am the reason I’m still at work, but it did help.
I didn’t feel great for the rest of the day, but I made it to 6 without passing out, Jimmy came back and I made his drink without running away, and then I went to Portillo’s grabbed a beef and cheddar and a Chocolate Shake, went home and slept until 8 the next morning. ahhhh, sleep.
So Sunday I went to the grocery store, stocked up on yogurt, Pre-made Chai Protein from Bolthouse, and Breakfast Essentials Protein mix for my milk in the mornings. Like I said, I want to be at work 5 more weeks, well 4 more weeks now, I have 6 weeks to go with pregnancy and I can’t sit at home all day, it’ll drive me crazy. So packing on the protein and calories in the morning it is because this little baby Brooklyn is sucking the life out of me little by little.

Hormonal Today

Hitting the hormonal section of pregnancy, guess it’s time. I’m tired, my feet hurt, I didn’t work much this week and I got a lot done but today I went back to work for a normal 8 hrs shift and felt as if my anxiety was crazy high and my temperament for people is at an all time low. I just think my mind is on high speed and my body is slowing down, telling me it’s time for rest. 10 more weeks, just 10 more weeks…. but this is how today felt…
(copied and edited text to mom)
I didn’t sleep long enough and I feel like the morning came to quickly and I had to be at work an hr earlier which screwed up my time basis. and I didn’t want to go to work this morning, that’s not normal. I left a little late bc I didn’t want to go. I couldn’t find my clock in card, to only find it in the wrong pocket of my purse, making me feel a bit more crazy. and then I couldn’t finish anything today, id start one thing then have to do something else and our beer truck didn’t come today so we didn’t have anything to stock and that stresses me out, though i know i cant do anything about it. and as I was trying to leave the servers and all like “wah, your being crazy pregnant today” and my customers are like “bleh, can’t think straight cuz your pregnant” and I just wanna be like “fuck off I don’t bitch when you have an off day”. then I find out I am opening the restaurant tomorrow at 8am which isn’t really a big deal, but that I didn’t notice it on the schedule, stresses me out bc i don’t not know my schedule….ever. idk??? I just want to crawl in my bed.

I need to go get my nails done but just don’t want to leave the chair in my living room, chocolate, a bubble bath, maybe some yoga…maybe something will get my stress down and my anxiety to slow. But until then I just feel crazy and irrational.

Oh the changes…

Don’t read this if you don’t wanna know more terror… lol

So hello, it’s been so long…working a lot lately. So what have you been going through lately… We’ve hit the 3rd Trimester this week! Less Energy for you, More Baby Activity, what about your lovely ta-tas, how are they holding on? Mine are growing a lb a day it seems and nothing seems to help, the new bras, the sports bra, the top with a bra built in…and have you looked into buying Nursing Pads yet? oh wait, but we’re not nursing, get ready for it… you may start “leaking” before the baby comes and from what I’ve heard from my girlfriends…. its just about to get worse after the baby. Pregnancy seems to be a leaky leaky situation. And your nose is stuffy and your brain…well that is gone…

I don’t feel as if I can keep up with work anymore, I go brain dead mid-sentence half the time or while I’m trying to ring something into the computer, I just stare at the screen until I remember again…Oh and what about remembering things and writing them down correctly, that skill has too left me. But I love work so I’m not leaving anytime soon, they may just have to kick me out!

Even tho I have less energy, I have been keeping up with my fit-ness if you will! Downloading Pre-Natal Yoga, Pilates, and Fitness videos. Yoga is exhausting just to let you know, I never knew Downward Facing Dog could be so hard. And don’t download or try videos in which the “instructor” is not pregnant, it makes you hate them (and that’s irrational). 

I have found that in my previous post.. you know the lovely UTI one… CAN and did get worse… back to the doctor I went last week and the doctor laughed and said Yes, you have these cells and high count in these cells and it looks like kidney stones maybe. “Awesome.” was my response. So it was back to the antibiotics, which I’m still on and more water. Which neither go nicely with a baby dancing on your bladder and every other organ you once enjoyed.

And How’s your baby doing? Is it a he or she? Is she dancing around in your belly and maybe sticking her foot in your rib cage just because she fits there. Or maybe she’s flipping around over and over and you just see your stomach wave about, like a scene from Alien??! If you’re anything like me, you find it extremely uncomfortable but totally enjoyable to feel and watch. 

And How are your dreams… or wait are you sleeping? Low Energy, No Rest, No Sleeping, and if you do get sleep it leads to crazy dreams…. wait what?! Exactly, your days of sleeping are over, the tossing and turning has started or maybe you have to pee every…hour or so, and you probably have made it an igloo inside your room just so your comfortable temperature wise. 

So changes eh… have fun! you’re pregnant!

First Minor Freak out

So Brooklyn has been moving around all over. Robert even gets to feel her little kicks and punches. It’s pretty cool to finally be able to share these moments. And we can’t wait to share more but for now he tells her how crazy I am through my belly.
Oh and we also registered for the baby shower finally!!! I was worried about what to register for what not to register for and everything in between. But I seemed Robert had shoes covered anything from sandals to converse to Nike and puma. It was great watching him get excited about the baby and her link wardrobe. I tried being more focused on books and toys to teach her shapes and colors. It was pretty fun but extremely overwhelming. But I have to say from what I’ve heard… just register for it all, big small expensive or not if you like it and you want it, register for it. At least you get a nice discount on it if no one purchases it for you.
So besides all the great things that I have to tell you, don’t forget of all the terrible things that happen during pregnancy…acne, infections, energy lag and of course weight gain. And of course it all started last night… the pain that is. If your anything like me, you don’t quit you go go go and you try to listen to your body but sometimes you take some minor aches and pain as normal. Last night, I felt a little crampy and as I had to go to the bathroom but didn’t. So my thought was a UTI coming on, get some AZO and cranberry juice in the morning and chug water tonight. Drinking water didn’t help, it kept me up throughout the night, waking up almost every hour, feeling as if my bladder was more than full, only to find it was less then full and now spasming every time I tried. I still pushed thru it, figuring I could flush it out and see the doctor Tuesday. After taking a shower and being in one of the most uncomfortable pains I’ve been in, I told Robert I needed to call off and go to the doctor, I couldn’t even bear to take Max for his morning around the complex. I felt useless and apologized but didn’t understand my pain, I’ve had a UTI before but not this bad. And then there’s the blood, the last three times I ran to the bathroom there was blood. Which made my body shake and my heart break, something is wrong. I called my mom and then the doctor who both believed I needed to get in ASAP. I opened the doors for work and sat in the office, I called the GM and everyone else I could think of to get my shift covered. I was in pain and terrified and I could keep a straight mind for the life of me. I wanted to cry every time I tried to pee and finally the doctors office had opened! The got me in within 30 minutes and out within 10. Of course, no worries but a bad UTI with lots of blood within the urine. Antibiotics and rest today, see the doctor on Tuesday and back to the grind tomorrow.
So I guess my advice to you, is not to wait until the last day, the last minute, to get your rest or to call your doctor. Minor things in pregnancy are a bit different since we are now the carriers of our children’s body, safety and health.
Somedays your body just says no and you must abide…


or shall we say rhino-itis… The book and the apps say it is common to have rhinitis during pregnancy, you know the swelling of membranes within you nose that make you congested. Amazing its it…6 months pregnant, your nose bleeds almost on cue and its stuffy all at the same time. But there’s more to it… that’s why we are calling it rhino-itis.
Because not only is your nose stuffy and “swollen” so are your feet, your hands, and more than likely your belly. Uncomfortable is what we shall call today. Also don’t forget about those other things growing on your face, yea your ance, you can blame that on your hormones too. Goodness gracious… do you get rhino-itis yet…? Big nose, a horn, being a bit bigger than normal, moving slow, you feet being almost as big as you thighs… Rhino-itis

Though ladies (and gents), its really only this bad to you. People will comment on how big you get every time they see you… but let’s be real somedays were bloated somedays were not, and well most days we feel a bit bloated, but other people think we look just great, carrying this baby so well. And you are, so smile and go with it.
Remember though you may feel like a rhino, no one sees that, and maybe you should too try to change your thoughts! : ))
And that is Future Baby and my thoughts for today!

Her creepy little eye

So Unlike most babies just hang out and stay still during ultrasounds Brooklyn was very happy moving around and opening her mouth movin her eye and showing us her little booty… Great ultrasound Pictures, but what a creep